elevator music is little consolation, mindless games on my smartphone, a favorite song, full blast, channel surfing, tik tok scrolling, chocolate, hot tea, happy thoughts, positive thinking is futile, powerless when the unknown looms just beyond my reach, and the answers I seek demand patience that is wearing thin… thinner still, the veil, drifting into view brushing my shoulders, caressing me in the excruciating silence of waiting waiting is a merciless exercise where I find myself counting each breath, inhaling deeply, filling to the brim, exhaling slowly, settling into my skin, to think I try to find solace in these things, to muster silly defenses against the terribleness of unknowing when all I really need is to feel, to experience the moment, the now to hear the rain dancing on the roof to realize it’s enough and all I need to know
It’s not me…my wife has had a horrible few years. Went from a nursing career she loved to permanent disability. As her caregiver and still also working full time, I’m just tired. 🙂
Hubby has no family and mine are distant in all sense of the word so it’s just us. It’s hard sometimes and I’m glad we’re retired as I couldn’t hold down a job and do everything else.
Look after you too though Kat. ❤
Looking forward to retiring and at least part time work in under 2 years. For now I need to work for the insurance…you know how that goes. I’m grateful that my job is remote though. And yes I hear you. Taking care of me is a challenge…I do savor those moments. 🥰
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August 9th, 2024 at 9:12 pm
Ahhhhh … the present moment. To embrace… to enjoy. Delightful, Kat ♥️
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August 9th, 2024 at 10:40 pm
Hi Michael. I hope you are well. The present is where it’s at! 😉
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August 9th, 2024 at 10:42 pm
Doing quite well. The heat index is a bit much here but Fall is coming 💖💖
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August 9th, 2024 at 10:44 pm
So good to hear. Yes the heat is a bit much this year…thank goodness fall is in the wings! 💚✨
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August 10th, 2024 at 1:29 am
We only have three present moment. No one can take a glimpse of the future to see what happens next or when. Good to see you posting Kat
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August 10th, 2024 at 2:02 pm
Hi Sadje. It’s feels good to post. Life has been a challenge this year. 🙂
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August 10th, 2024 at 6:25 pm
I understand. Take care.
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August 10th, 2024 at 2:45 pm
Good to see a post from you Kat. This is quite lovely
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August 10th, 2024 at 9:12 pm
Hi Dee. Good to be here. 😊
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August 11th, 2024 at 11:38 am
You OK Kat?
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August 11th, 2024 at 1:58 pm
It’s not me…my wife has had a horrible few years. Went from a nursing career she loved to permanent disability. As her caregiver and still also working full time, I’m just tired. 🙂
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August 11th, 2024 at 2:00 pm
Oh Kat, I am so sorry. I knew she hadn’t been well from some of your earlier posts. Do you get any other help or is it just the two of you?
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August 11th, 2024 at 2:01 pm
Pretty much just the two of us. Family does not live close by.
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August 11th, 2024 at 2:05 pm
Hubby has no family and mine are distant in all sense of the word so it’s just us. It’s hard sometimes and I’m glad we’re retired as I couldn’t hold down a job and do everything else.
Look after you too though Kat. ❤
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August 11th, 2024 at 2:08 pm
Looking forward to retiring and at least part time work in under 2 years. For now I need to work for the insurance…you know how that goes. I’m grateful that my job is remote though. And yes I hear you. Taking care of me is a challenge…I do savor those moments. 🥰
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August 11th, 2024 at 3:11 pm
❤ hugs to you both Kat.
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